Michael and I were called to move to San Antonio and minister at The Church at Vineyard Hills. This is a church where his dad is the pastor. We meet in a school cafeteria and have about 30 people on a Sunday. We have "satellite groups" during the week for study and fellowship. This place is different than any church I've ever been a part of and honestly, it was a huge step of faith for me because I'm comfortable in churches where there are thousands of people...that's just it though....COMFORTABLE. Ever since we have been in San Antonio, the Lord has really opened my eyes and heart to reveal to me that I have spent my years as a follower of Christ being entirely too comfortable. In the past I have prided myself in being a part of big name ministries where there are a ton of people...wow...I'm revealing alot about my heart's condition here! The Lord has begun to really break down my pride and search my heart. He has revealed to me that it's not about numbers, but lives changed by the power of the gospel. He has called me out of my pride and out of my "everything is so great in my life" fakeness...to a humble, broken spirit. He has reminded me of the importance of discipleship and investing in the lives of others for His glory. I have come to a place in my walk where I am so hungry to just know Jesus more intimately. There is a song that I love that really speaks my heart right now and so I'll share the lyrics with you...
"The more I seek You, the more I find You."
The more I find You, the more I love You.
I want to sit at Your feet, drink from the cup in Your hand,
lay back against You and breathe, feel Your heartbeat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand,
I melt in Your peace, it's overwhelming."
All of this to say, God is at work in a huge way in this heart and life. He is so good and I am so thankful for the grace that allows the process of sanctification in my life. He is at work in San Antonio and at work at the Church at Vineyard Hills. He is bringing people to know Himself and calling them into fellowship eternally with Himself. He is making disciples and using us, people, in spite of who we are. God is so good and His grace amazes me! I want to know Him more, I want to sit at His feet!
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thanks for sharing your heart. it's good to hear about how things are going for you and what God is doing in your life. much love!
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