Sometimes things change....

So my last post was about me desiring to be at home next year......

A lot has happened between then and now, too much for me to blog about right now...

Things change....

There are a lot of factors that went into our decision, but I am going to teach another year and then see what happens...

This is where we have peace, in this decision. I am excited. I just am thankful for the journey we are on and in the grand scheme of the journey, one more year isn't that long. We are super blessed to have a Nana who takes care of our sweet Tatum 3 days a week and he goes to an awesome Mother's Day Out program the other 2 days. Financially, we need my income right now and that is ok. So, first grade isn't finished with me yet! :)

I considered titling this blog, "here we go again." We have begun "trying" to have another baby. I actually was only on birth c.ontrol for about 6 months after having Tatum. We knew how many issues we had the first time, so I didn't want to be on the p.ill for too long. I have been off of it for over a year now. Anyway, just as soon as I was ready to admit that we were trying again I started having a lot of issues with my c.ycle. I went to see my dr. who thought she felt a cyst or fibroid in my uterus so she ordered an ultrasound. the u/s came back clear, praise the Lord! I just have some "aggressive" (as she put it) scarring because of my c-section scar. Anyway, I had to go back on b.irth c.ontrol to try to regulate my cycles. I will be on it for 3 months and then we will go from there. This time around is so different. We desire to have more children, but we also have a sweet miracle boy already. We don't deserve him or any more for that matter. It's all an abundance of grace. This time around is really, really different...in a peaceful way.

Tatum James is almost 20 months. I cannot believe I am thinking about my baby boy's 2nd birthday party already! Time really does fly. He is ALL BOY. I am often saying, "he is like a bull in a china closet."

Tatum is rough and tumble. He likes to run. He LOVES to be outside. He likes to spin in circles until he falls down. He loves to slide. He really likes making truck noises. He doesn't like naps because it means he is missing something. He is a super picky eater. He laughs when he is disciplined unless it is timeout...that works for now. He laughs a lot. He does the robot dance, gets his "guns up" and shows his muscles. He loves to read his "Bibles" as he calls it. He is obsessed with guitars and loves to hold them and play them. He loves music (which he calls lolly). He likes to ride in the jeep more than the honda. He wants "wader" a lot (but really means a little apple juice with water). He wears 2T and 3T clothes. He says "wuv you" which will melt your heart. That is our boy in a nut shell! We are so blessed by this boy and definitely on our toes all the time! :)

We are still amazed each week at ARCC to see the way God is blessing His church. We are growing and we are seeing the Lord change hearts and lives. We are humbled and so thankful for the opportunity to be leading and serving there. I get really overwhelmed when I think about all of the relationships the Lord has given to us in and through the starting of this church. He is so good and has answered so many of our specific prayers. We are just so excited to see all He has planned in the coming days. Michael is doing an amazing job as a lead pastor. I may be a little biased, but I think others would agree! ;) He is anointed to teach the Word. If you want to hear a sermon you can get the podcasts on the website at www.arcc.net. Michael has a gift of communicating the gospel. We are currently going through Mark. I am so thankful for Michael's leadership, not just of his family, but of the church as well. I am humbled to get to do this with him. We are blessed beyond measure and are just loving life. We know that in all things, our Sovereign Lord is faithful and in total control. We rest in that, we lead in that, we parent in that, and we just try to walk daily in that truth. We pray the same for our families, our friends, and our church family.

Heart's Desire

I am a teacher. I wanted to be a teacher for as long as I can remember. I love my job. I have put a lot of effort into what I do. I have stayed too late and brought too much home. I have shed tears over students. I have been doing what I felt like I was meant to do for 6 years....

and then God blessed me with a miracle baby who needs his mommy and God entrusted us with His church...to lead...and shepard...

God changes the heart. He calls. He commands. He requires obedience. As Michael has taken the role of lead pastor of a young church plant, my role has changed. I had no idea how much it would change as a pastor's wife. I had no idea that all of a sudden, my heart would be burdened, not by first graders, but by women in the church. My heart would yearn for ladies to become disciples. My heart aches for women who are hurting within their marriages. God is making it clearer and clearer that I am to partner full time with Michael next year. I am to be available for whatever...

Obedience is hard. Obedience means faith. Faith that brings about questions....faith that brings about fear that constantly has to be repented of... Faith that says, "If you are calling, Lord, then Yes, I will obey."

So many questions, so many what-ifs, so many financial obstacles....He's calling though...I know He is...and I know it's going to require obedience. So, my heart's desire is to get to stay home next year and not go back to teaching (I NEVER thought I would say that)! My heart's desire is to be able to serve alongside my husband and serve him as he leads ARCC. My heart's desire is to be home with my son to teach him and nurture him. My heart's desire is to disciple...to have ladies in my home to love and encourage. God is so faithful. Praying for bigger faith through these worldly eyes....just wanting to fix them on Jesus...just wanting to obey.... but a little scared of this heart's desires.

1st Birthday....Help!

Fellow moms: what are some fun activity ideas for a first birthday party? We are having Tatum's party at our house and our house is small. It is hot outside so I am trying to come up with some indoor activities. Let me know of any that you did or have seen done that worked well!

I am already planning to do a craft table where the kids decorate a paper necktie (we are doing a "little man" themed party).

I'm open to any and all suggestions! :)

Alamo Ranch Community Church

In January, the 16th to be exact, we launched a church in Northwest San Antonio. When we moved to San Antonio we jumped right in to serve alongside Michael's dad at Vineyard Hills Church. Michael became the worship leader and we were on leadership. We were happy to serve where there was a need. Michael was called to preach when we were in college and knew that someday he would have that opportunity. VH ran about 30 people on a Sunday and we were kind-of at a place where we stopped growing. We were at this place for a few years even. We (the leadership) all felt as if God might be calling us to do something else. We began to pray. Michael was a middle school math teacher in an area of San Antonio where there is a tremendous amount of growth. On his drive to work each day, he noticed how few churches there were in this part of SA. He began to tell me that he thought God may be calling us to re-plant VH in this particular area. During this time, Michael's dad felt like it was time to hand over the preaching to Michael, so in October he took on the preaching full time at VH.

Michael could not escape the call he felt in his heart to Northwest San Antonio (specifically the Alamo Ranch area). We all began praying and we met with all of the people of VH to ask if they would be willing to go with us if we re-planted. (This new area is quite a drive for a lot of them) All of our members at VH said they would go! So it began, the praying and planning...

January 16th was the launch Sunday for Alamo Ranch Community Church. We are meeting in an elementary school in the AR neighborhood. We were so excited (but nervous at the same time). As people kept coming in the doors that Sunday, we felt such a comfirmation from the Lord that Michael had been obedient to the call west! Ever since that Sunday, we have averaged about 135 people to love on and minister to. We hear so many people say that they were waiting and praying for a church in their area.

So, here we were, 135 people to minister to.....and a pastor/worship leader who also taught middle school math! Michael and I began to pray that God would open the door for him to be able to resign his position as a math teacher so he could pastor full time in the fall. A few months before school got out for summer, Michael turned in his resignation letter to the school district. We are so excited! The time he was having to devote to studying the word and meeting iwth people after school hours, did not allow us to have family time. We are so thankful that God has given us the go on him pastoring full time. We aren't 100% on the finances as a church to pay him salary, but we are trusting and praying! Our elders have gone to our people to ask them to pray about giving over and above so their pastor can go on full time. We know God is able and we feel like this was the right step of obedience for our family.

We are so humbled for the opportunity to serve the Alamo Ranch community and beyond. I am thankful for a husband who leads us in faith and obedience. I am confident that the Lord will provide.

10 Months

We are still here! Tatum is 10 months old today! I never knew what people meant by "time flies" and "they grow up so fast" until now! Holy cow! We are 2 months away from having a one year old in the McCracken house. It is unbelievable!

When Tatum went to the Dr. for his 9 month checkup he weighed 22 pounds. I am sure by now he is 25! He was in the 75% for his weight and height and 90% for his head. We have a big boy on our hands!

I am absolutely loving being home with him for the summer. He is so much fun. At 10 months he is pointing, crawling super fast, pulling up on everything, walking along furniture, standing on his own for a few seconds at a time, babbling a lot, eating cheerios and lots of puffs... and a lot of other fun things! He loves to go to the pool and he loves to be outside. Tatum means bringer of joy and he is certainly living up to his name! We are so blessed!

Mother's Day

So tomorrow is my very first mother's day. I am overjoyed as I type that sentence and as I sit here thinking of my beautiful and healthy 8 month old sleeping in the next room. I am overwhelmed by the faithfulness of the Lord and His grace upon my life.

In my joy, I am also heavy-hearted. My heart is heavy for those I know who want so badly to be moms and haven't been able to have children. My heart is so heavy. I used to dread Mother's Day. It used to be a super emotional day and selfishly I used to wish we could just pretend like it wasn't mother's day even though I wanted to honor my own mom.

So, tomorrow, I am celebrating Jesus's power to answer our hearts' cries for our own child. I am celebrating my mom, who has endured so much in her life and still presses on. I am celebrating that God answers prayers....and I will be praying without ceasing for my friends who are hurting so badly on their infertility journeys. Oh, Jesus, be near to my precious friends who want the blessing of children. Father, open their wombs and heal their bodies. Father give them peace in You and satisfy their souls with your presence. Be glorified in their stories and in ours!

Half a Year

I cannot believe that Tatum is 6 months old! I keep saying, "that's half a year!!!" Here are his current stats!

• 26 inches long
• 17.15 pounds
• 50th percentile for weight and height
• 90th percentile for head (the Dr. said his brain is still growing) His body has to catch up with this head! :)

Tatum is healthy and happy! He has started eating veggies, which he is not a fan of...must get this from daddy! He makes the funniest faces when he's eating veggies, that is when I can get him to open his mouth!

We are still working on those naps. If you have any pointers on nap schedules, I am all ears! He is sleeping 11-12 hours each night which is amazing.

We love our "bringer of joy" and are continuously humbled by the grace the Lord pours out over our lives. Happy 6 months sweet baby boy!