I am sitting here typing this post from my parent's house in Ennis, Tx. Yesterday we celebrated Thanksgiving with my mom and dad, my sister, my brother, his wife, and their two beautiful kids. My sister came in from North Carolina and my brother and his family were in from Ft. Hood. I am so thankful that we were all together as a family. Since my brother was deployed over Thanksgiving last year, it has been like 2 years since we were all together. I am not only thankful that we were able to spend Thanksgiving together as a family, I am also thankful that after all my family has endured, we are physically and emotionally able to be together during the holidays. This Thanksgiving, there was no drama, which I prayed hard for! It sounds silly, but it is a huge God-thing that we had a peaceful day together. I am so thankful. I am so thankful that God is restoring relationships in my family. I am so thankful that He continues to work in my dad's life as he recovers from years of alcoholism. I am so thankful.
Wednesday is a big day for Michael and I. We will go to Reproductive Medicine Associates in San Antonio to meet Dr. Hudson for the first time. She is a reproductive endocrinologist...AKA a fertility specialist. We will have our first appointment with her because my Ob/gyn did not want to keep me on Clomid any longer. She said that she wasn't sure why I still wasn't pregnant since I did so well on the Clomid, so she wanted to send me to a specialist. I am thankful for her pro-active way of handling my situation. We will meet with Dr. Hudson and her team on Wednesday at 1:30. We are praying for wisdom and guidance as we make decisions that will affect our future family. We are full of hope and are excited to take this next step. There are definitely days that I throw my "it's not fair" and "why us?" tantrums, but the God of peace and hope just reassures me in my soul that He is in control and He is faithful, good and unchanging. He is true to His promises and He has put a desire in my heart to be a mom...He will come through. I am reading a book right now written by 2 women who struggled with infertility for years and they made the statement that "in the battle of infertility, you will win." They talk about how if you want to be parents, it will happen....it may not be the way you always thought it would happen, but you can have a family. I felt the Lord reassuring my heart as I read that. He is big enough to perform this miracle. He is big enough and His plans are perfect. Oh, Lord, help me see beyond they way I've always wanted things to be.
Once again, thank you so much for praying!
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